Wednesday, December 20, 2023

 

6 years ago this is where I was.  It was a wonderful day.

Today too is wonderful.  So many changes have happened.  I’m on track to retire in 9-10 months. Currently saving $500 per week to add to the retirement plan.  I don’t know if I will end my employment then, but I can if I want. 

My work has been thrown into complete chaos.  Not terrible but definitely not a great environment.  My coworker has a new boss. The new boss is a useless fool. The fool keeps busy by micromanaging to the point of ridiculous.  They try that with me too.  When I tell them “I can’t get anything done because you keep asking what I’m getting done every 30 minutes”. I get a duhh face. Then I have to explain what I’ve already explained 30 minutes ago. Repeat 5 times a day!  I’ve had 3 toddlers so I’ve dealt with this before!

I just smile and keep it simple.  Seems to work.

Some huge life changes since I blogged last. My nest is empty. Kid 3 was added to a team a few hours away. Scramble to set up classes and living away. I was not prepared to say the least. I miss him horribly.  But a couple months and he will be back.  Now we have xmas together and I love it.  

Grocery bill is 1/3 of what it used to be.  

The man and I reached the brink.  He is in weekly counselling since the end of September.  I saw a therapist too. I’m not going back for now.  She said when I feel I’m ready to address trauma that I had as a child and young woman it would help, but I’m not ready.  What I do know is I will not put up with his behaviour for one more minute. I’m prepared financially if I need to leave.  

My parental units continue to be an annoyance.  I can’t fix things that are their own doing and choosing.  The mother has a noticeable cognitive decline, but her wicked narcissism helps cover it up.  She has always made herself to be the victim/martyr in stories, so the validity of her tales has always been questionable.  But now recounting events with names and dates is quite off.  Her incontinence continues to get worse.  (I wonder if someone has tried smacking the shit out of her as she did me and my sibling at age 2 for using a diaper?). Oops part of my old unhealed trauma coming out.  They have refused to move closer, so come what may.  I’m not dropping everything and driving half a day to cater to them. 

This xmas should be quiet.  Trying to have some time with all 4 kids now and eagerly awaiting the grand baby.  My dil is doing great.  Had a queasy start, but it’s actually funny to see how big her appetite is. (I of course do not ever say this!) she’s making up for lost meals that she had for the first few months.  

I have some shopping to do for kid 3 who needs some clothes for school.  (Easy to wash stuff because he has to do his own…funny how that’s a worry when mom isn’t there)

A couple stocking stuffers and then I should be all relaxed 😎 

Wishing you and yours a very happy holiday season!

BKat



1 comment:

Hawaii Planner said...

Hope you & your family have a great holiday, and it's awesome that you've made so much retirement progress! Having the flexibility to choose what to do next must be really exciting.