I guess that is that for our spring. I blinked and missed it.
I have done the usual yard work this year. Maintaining my perennial flower beds with a bit of weeding and watering. The work that we did last year looks great. I planted 4 big planters and bought 3 baskets. Most was bought with a birthday gift card - so free beauty!
I received my yearly retirement estimate and I am on track to retire at 55. I would like to start X ing off the days, but it might be a bit soon! We have talked more about moving this year, and it doesn’t seem practical right now. Kid 3 will be at home for at least 5 more years and our location is perfect for school.
My work has increased in hours, I do 3-5 days a week. I am forever looking for another position. I have my eye on something that may open up this fall. Not holding my breath. I’ve had to report situations about my manager above her head, her choices did not make her look good. I like her as a person, and it was not easy to do. Ethically I had to. So needless to say her recommending me for a new position likely won’t happen!
Because I’m almost at full time hours, we aren’t getting away for the summer. I have all that I can handle with house and yard work. I have had no improvement in the way I feel. Constant tired and stiff aching body. It doesn’t matter how much I sleep, exercise actually makes it way worse. I’m depressed. I have done most of my yearly body maintenance - Eye exam - new prescription needed for my left eye, dental exam - all good, mammogram next week and then I’m going to need an ultrasound like I always do... I see my GP in a couple of weeks. She will say I have classic fibromyalgia and that I need to exercise more. I will tell her I’m exhausted and it feels like rigormortis sets in for days and gets only worse when I “push through the pain”. Then there will be talk of new medication, all with nasty side effects....
I continue to meditate daily. That helps me sleep. My kids are doing great. Kid 2 still has no concrete plans, but that’s ok. I’m so proud of all 3 of them.
My maternal unit called me yesterday for no apparent reason except to smugly tell me that they were in the city last week to see my siblings kids. Of course they didn’t call, or stop in because why would you want to see all of your grandchildren when you only have the important ones?? I don’t bite when she throws out tidbits. I’ve perfected a “grey rock” method with her. I don’t forget the selfishness and favouritism, neither will my kids. Demonstrates how I NEVER want to be with my kids and family.
I need to do my laundry for the week. I’m out of pants that fit. Because when the side effect of your medication is weight gain, and it hurts to move, your pants get too small. I have 3 pair in rotation. Out of stubbornness I don’t want to buy more. I have many nice pair that are too tight! I need to stop eating for a few weeks. I don’t know if that is feasible?!
Kid 3 found a tick crawling on his arm yesterday. So now I have the itches. We took a flashlight and went all over the chair, the blanket and the dog (who we think was the tick taxi) . Haven’t found another...yet. Blagh!!
The good things...
Great kids
Beautiful Yard
Good Friends
Things that suck...
The parental units.
Decrepit body
2 comments:
I can really relate to the decrepit body and the great kids. My mother played terrible favorites with the boys and there kids it was hard. I am sorry you are hurting. Fibro is a beast to deal with. It meeses with your head as much as with your body.
Spending so much time on the trails I am constantly worried about ticks. I'm like that with clothes also - I refuse to go up a size so am motivated (sort of) to try and take the weight off.
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