Soaking Up Sunshine

This is not a financial post at all.  This is a life and daily happenings 😊

 I had a very productive 2 week staycation.  The yard looks great.  New trees and shrubs planted, old dead branches trimmed and gone.  The dh was very helpful. He did all of the backbreaking work.  As we move along it becomes clear that we will stay in this house for at minimum 6 more years.  The swingset was sold a couple of years ago, no need for a sandbox anymore.  The basketball hoop and hockey net are the only "toys" that stay out now.  Looking at putting in a firepit in the back yard now that kids "hang out" vs play.

The trip to the west coast was put on hold.  Making the yard a sanctuary that we like to hang out in every day used up some of that $$ and is a good personal return on investment! Many hours are spent relaxing and entertaining. A 10 day trip would have been a great adventure but that would mean that the yard improvements and house fixes wait another year.  We mostly needed the hours at home to do the work. Some day when it isn't windy I will need a couple days for painting/staining projects.  It should have been done last year but post-op I didn't feel like it!  The house trim and the shed are looking very shabby.

Dh and I booked an anniversary trip for fall.  3 months from now I hope to be relaxing in the mountains.  Flights paid with airmiles, car rental from Costco and rooms with a professional association discount.  Our first adult only vacation in 9 years!

I've returned to physio.  I think it's helping, hard to say what is injury vs. getting older.  My GP gently talked to me about having a diagnosis of fibromyalgia.  She knew I wouldn't take that well.  I don't know how to process that yet.  After my third day back to work yesterday I was so completely exhausted I went to bed at 6:10, stayed in bed until 9 this morning.  My legs were cramping and aching, I had the bad "crawlies" sensation on my back that I get.  I get a lot of weird stuff happening.  No rash and fever which was unusual as it often is concurrent when I hit the wall like that.

 Part of the physio treatment is psychological too.  It's a holistic place.  I'm grieving and also downright pissed off that I can't do what I used to 8 years ago.  I used to be a very decent athlete.  I played every sport except basketball.  Dh and I used to golf together.  Sports is a huge part of my kids lives and I can't do anything except watch now. I miss playing catch, shooting pucks, diving in a pool and swimming laps, riding my mountain bike...  I'm learning to meditate.  It's hard to let go.  It's hard to not be angry and sad.  Serenity now!  I can walk.  I can downhill ski (only the green runs). I can snorkel with my flippers on.  I win at mini golf.  I sit on the deck and bask in the sun like an old cat. (Not for long because I'm a redhead- but it warms my aching bones). There will be nutritional counselling too at my holistic place.  I haven't met with that person yet but I like lentils and quinoa and chia seeds!  Maybe more of that.  More kale.  (The dh will not be enthused haha).

This weekend is a birthday weekend for kid3. Not my baby anymore.  The inlaws are here for a night.  I'm not happy about it but will handle it for my kid.  They let their thoughts about me be known last summer. I'm done sacrificing my time and energy for them.  Trust me that they are vampires that suck the life out of me.  That is one thing that has been very refreshing is being done catering to them all of the time.  It was never appreciated.  Thank god they don't live here!!!

I'm going to enjoy my day off, drink my coffee in the sun, water my new trees and flowers.  I wish I could upload pictures onto the blog to show my mango rose.  It is beautiful, the moment I saw it, it reminded me of my grandma.  She would love the color!  I'm also going to mark out where I think a firepit should go.  Dh will be so thrilled with my plans for him to dig!!

The good things:
Summer sun
Popsicles
Lillies and roses

Things that suck:
People that are users
Decrepid body