I Made it!

I made it to the end of my temporary full time, plus overtime, plus call my cell all hours of the day and night job!

I also haven't had a moment of vacation since the end of June.

Thus, I am off for a month.  With the exception of a 30 minute meeting on the 10th (which the &@!3's are going to have to pay me for).  I have health matters to attend to.  An ultrasound done yesterday, 2 more physio appointments and I have about 8 months of sleep to catch up on!!

This past month has been beyond belief the people that I know and love are dying.  I've lost an Uncle (but he was 96 - not a shocker), 2 dear friends one with ovarian cancer, the other breast cancer, 2 family friends one with lymphoma and another "young" woman of 42 to breast cancer.  My best friends mom has just been diagnosed with brain cancer.

This is bullshit.  What is going on?  With the exception of the 96 yr old that smoke and drank his whole life, everyone else has lived a very healthy lifestyle!  I can't make sense of any of it.

My friends mom means the world to me. Every day after school was spent at her house.  She was the mom I wished that I had.  More importantly she is the Mom that I have tried to be like for my boys.  One that loves and hugs and laughs.  She talked to me like I was important, she took us kids places to see concerts, go camping, participate in sports.  She cheered for me like her own daughter.  I'm so grateful that I had her in my life as a role model as a child and teen.

It is a time to evaluate what I consider important.  What I want to accomplish

I don't feel much like Christmas decorating.  But I will, because it matters to my little guy.

My little family matters, my dear friends matter, I matter.  I just need to sort some things out.

Peace