Sometimes you need to only look out your window to see the beauty around. This was out my back door the other day. Hoar frost is a treat in the winter, turning everything into a sparkling show.
When I typed “Out your window” I immediately thought of Kim and my heart goes out to her and her family. She’s been such a kind and funny support for me over the years. I hope that she knows how much she’s appreciated and cared about.
I saw the new year in with family, exhausted after a 7 hour drive and a week away for kid 3 sport. I did get to see my favourite cousin and his family for a few hours, so that was a welcome bonus. Kid 3 did great, very proud of the hard work.
I checked my “retirement calendar” and it shows 619 days! I am putting the cruise control on and plowing forwards. Anytime that I mention it to the man he becomes even more surly than his normal surly self. And that is how he is.
The parental units are purging their hoard and planning on a move here in the next year. The purge = giving me all the crap that my sibling doesn’t want. Lucky me. Things that I needed 20 years ago, going through my divorce they were unable to give me. Like a dining table and chairs in the basement that they piled boxes on. They needed it. Nobody has ever eaten a meal at that table, but it couldn’t be parted with. Now - “Didn’t you want that table downstairs?” No thanks, I’m getting ready to downsize myself.
What has been positive is that I am finally not completely exhausted every day. The secret…
My own bedroom. I don’t get woke up 15-20 times a night by snoring and flopping around on the bed, him up to the bathroom 2-3 times. The man is morbidly obese and his health is not unaffected.
I found my sleep success when he had covid and I moved to a different bedroom. Glorious, simply glorious to sleep 8 hours a night! To not have dark circles under my eyes and be dragging myself out of bed everyday, amazing! It was awful sharing a bed in the hotel. I needed a nap every day to function.
I am also reading books, last year was only 25, but I was busy with the wedding. This year I hope to hit 40. I use the Good Reads app and my local library has an app that makes it beyond simple to request books. I get an email when my book is in, and it is on a shelf waiting for me with my name on it. I love it.
My work situation has changed. It happened quite suddenly when I walked into work, there was someone else sitting beside me. I knew nothing about the change happening. This person has loads of family problems and a sense of great self importance. They also think that they are my boss. They aren’t. So there are quite a few clarifications that I need to do daily as they try to define my scope of practice. This new person is permanent I fear, so I only work extra days when they aren’t there. The family disruptions that they get are so bizarre and disrupting to myself and all the offices around it is ridiculous. I like working alone best. I also like working from home. I have a good set up here. Comfortable and quiet, but sadly I need to be on site for much of what I do.
I go back to work in a couple of days and I’m feeling the dread build up. I hate that.
But it pays the bills and builds my retirement fund.
So only good things to end:
A stack of books
A wonderful nights sleep
Healthy kids that I love being around and spending time with.
Just keep swimming!